So much on my mind

I started back to school this semester after taking over a year off. I am enjoying the classes and wish there was a way to speed forward and finish my AA already. 5 more classes to go, then off to the university. So three classes this semester is a lot more than I really though it would be. What was I thinking. Work is fine, easy, good, doesn't pay much, but provides for the family and does good for the future of the world. Daughter's father decided to go back to jail this month. So we have gone back to counseling for the daughter. Good to have the tools we need to help her. My brother's mother-in-law is dying of cancer, so I start thinking about people dying again, hence getting myself all dark thinking again. Then I'm thinking about how the daughter is growing so quickly, becoming so independent and seeming like she doesn't need me much anymore. About how badly I want another baby, but I don't think one is forthcoming. I've got to get out of this dark space and look at the good I guess.