Accountability

In reflecting on my life and how to improve those things which I want to improve upon, I've realized that it has been a very long time since I was accountable to someone. I generally make my rules up as I go along, make little promises along the way and those I do make to myself and to others, while I have the best of intentions, I am pretty bad at following through on. So, in saying that and in considering my rediscovered faith and dedication in living my life the way God has planned, I am accountable to Him. Well, I need a little, erm, maybe a lot of help, and I've been thinking that I'm probably not the only one. SO, on Sunday morning I woke up in a panic, well Syd starts baseball next Saturday and it was raining on Sunday after the snow had mostly melted and the baseball gear was, well where else, in the back yard under the melted snow and now it was getting even wetter. Accountability, I had not followed through when Syd said she was going out to get her stuff a week ago. So out I went, I found a ball and a bat. Here comes Al, he says, what about the gloves, so he finds one wet glove, it is getting dryer as the week goes by, and Syd comes home, and finds the bag and the other glove, so now they are drying. I really hope I don't have to replace that stuff, it isn't free after all.
Back to the subject here, now this is just one of the MANY available examples of how not following through is costly. So, I realized that I've pretty much been moving through life with very little idea of what direction I'm headed on a daily basis. Ever try to get to a new destination without a map, not too easy. So, I began by laying out some goals for Sunday, I accomplished a few, and a few are still in progress.

• Clean Sydney's room Getting there
• Clean Brooklyn's room Done
• Finish homework Done
• The list goes on, but I'll stop here I suppose, it's just a bunch of boring stuff, point is that I accomplished about half.

So I'll keep trying, I recall my cousin asking me once where I wanted to be in 5 years. The answer was "Walking Sydney to Kindergarten" Well, I accomplished that, 6 years ago, might be time to work a little harder. So here I go.

It's working

I chose the field of communications in which to pursue my Bachelors Degree because I figured that at the very least it would be interesting and it may improve my ability to develop interpersonal relationships and to understand that I'm not so different from everyone else. It's working, today I met with a new daycare provider, interviewed her and hired her. I was also able to ask a question that I was afraid would make another person uncomfortable and found that the interaction wasn't so hard afterall.

So baby B will go to a home daycare two days a week and Al will get the sleep that he has thus far refused to admit he needs. So we will be putting out more money than we have before, but really the cost is not too over the top and we can afford it.